what's it all about anyway?

I don't have a clue what I am doing these days, I hng with Devin with the Best intentions and then mess up we both know we shouldn't be kising and making out or whatever but when no one else is around emotions just kinda getthe best of us.....hey just a Note if yourgonna tell me something you May not want sarah to know yoiu shouldn't tell me cuz she knows everything I know even if I don't say anythign strait out she can just tell cuz she knows everthing that goes on with me SO ya sorry if that messes up any plans or whatever but with in the week she will know cuz if she finds out soemthing before I tell her then I owe her money its just kinda out little agreement so ya ummmm I don't know what is going on with Mark right now he won't talk to me at all and there's nothin I can do about it so I guess I give up.....I have actually had a lot of time to THINK and be alone especially with the whole boring cliafornia trip I had so much freakin time to think...gosh anyway I got lost one night out walking OOPS ask me and i'll tell ya about it k ummmmm I actually Might be giong to Preferance on the 22nd a friend of mine Jake from Idaho may come down depending on when he is getting recognized for his eagle and how bad the roads are and if his cousin is gonna come home that weekend but its probably yes i'm stoked anwyay ummmm I wish People would tell me stuff cuz aactually if itsl ike SUPER pesonal I won't tell sarah sorry sarah but I just tell ya stuff to do with ME so thats actually the way it goes k Hey you and becca stil;l owe me dinner LOL and you know it umm what else I actually think i'm completely bored with this whole Blog thing cuz then people just loko on here to see hows it? and I like talking to people yes even if its about Mark even though everytime I usually break down cuz I don't know what I did I glad that Jake is here for nme right now cuz it seem slike no one else can listen to it cuz either it hurts Devin or sarah's life is already too complicated and everyone else is just Way too busy if any of ya'll ever have time we'll go plaY okay I can listen to whatever is going on that is if you can listen too anyway the bells gonna ring and I still have rto check Sarah's blog so i'l talk to ya'll later ~EMERZ~P.s. that name came From Van if ya wana use it ask HER