Ballroom and junk

well Thankxgiving was okaY i guess I met some new friends in Idaho which one was Shon...he was pretty cute and we played Pool and he played the guitar for me then he tried to get me to play and well of corse you know me I wouldn't.....I don't like playing for people...cuz I always get the same reaction which is not so much fun because they don't like it so my Family is either going to California or Idaho for christmas and I thought at the time is was Idaho so Shon Made me promise that I would write him a song and play and sing for him the next iem I was in town so on the way home I wrote it and I havebenn tring to write guitar stuff for it but my daddy heard me playing the guitar and he was all okaY? and I think i've heard something like that before well he wasn't to supportive and he just comfirmed the fact of WHY I don't play for people. oh well anyway this is Hell week for ballroom were up everymorning ready to go here at school at 6:30 its Hard but we have a preformance on Saturday and i'm excited cuz my whole Fam will be there and melisa and my ex (sarah's b/f) and Mikey for Misa and Kevin or Nick or well SHON would have come but he had a restling tournament HOPEFULLY still I can make him come and just NOT go to his restling thing...that would be cool cuz he was alot of fun..like in the middle of playing pool there was like 1 chair down there and I was sitting on it and hew as all hey thats my chair so after a while I got up and he was all you can still sit down so I sat on his lap itwas fun anyway i am supposto be in class actually maybe doing my work so ya i'll try that MAYEB i'll be on later i'm out ~EMZ~

once again

AIght once again i'm writing and I honestly don't know exactly WHY
AIGHT here's whats going on ....Pretty much I'm writin gthis for mike cuz NO on else reads this
so its like my online Journal and Mike gets to read it
k well IF any one else IS reading this Mike is a friend of mine from Virginia I met him online about what was it 4 years ago or something like that but we talked all the time and well ya
SO mike here goes it
Boys suck right now I can't have the one i want his name is Mark
Mark lives in california right next to disney land anyway I met him this last summer at EFY in california when I went with my dad and kinda pretended to be a councelor anyway we went out but because of the difference in where we live its Hard

I COUld have gone to see him this week wityh my Grandparents who were driving down there from Idaho and i go tinvited but NO my dad has to be retarted and say NO well I haven't seen him since sept 4th and well it SUCKS

in ballroom there is Devin He's my Ex boy friend and well i'm just kinda sick of him he got all obsessive and I got bugged PLEASE don't think i'm all y like (oh he can't have me i'm a brat) and all that cuz i'm really NOT its seriously how it is and well it Buggs

then there's Rory He lives in Centerville which is about 1 hour from me and that sucks cuz he's alot of Fun BUT he's also gone into the Marines and is moving to California San diego to be persice and I saw him for the last time this last week when we were supposto be hanging out then Malory the that he drives down with because her boy friend lives here at UVSC the university about 5 min from my house anyway he's leaving on the 8th of November but this coming up weekend when I SHOULD be able to see him ......Mal and Matt (her b/f) are going to Las vegas for Her uncles wedding cuz she's singing so I won't see rory for at least a year and I know he'll forget all about me

but then again I thought you had forgotten about me as well so Hey I could be wrong

then I did have a little Fling......hey that about all my life it anyway ........ his name is OLA prounced like OO-la well he was with his class from Sweeden with some foriegn exchange program it was cool bu tya we all hung out bnu ti'll never see him again but I actually don't think I care it was just fun

Sad to say hanging out with Jenna last night I figured out i have kissed /or/ made out with 13 guys ya i know well it sbetter then you thin kcuz I THOUGHT for some ODD reason it was 16 and I just couldn't remember 3 of the guys but HEY no I remembver all of them
and well this is Just kinda a little list for me as well but umm ya here it goes
1Jason Dowski
2Josh Jensen
3Joey Cash
4Paul Scott
5
6Jordan King
7Kyle Hansen
8Rory Hirst
9Devin Wallace
10Skyler Zobell
11Mark Phelps
12Kevin Litchfield
13Ola...(sweden)
well for some reason RIGHT this very second I cna't remeber #5 don't worry i'll fill him in later bu tya I it butI guess i just feel like I HAVE to fill some Hole in my life and I know very well that Mark could fill it but because we can NEVER see eachother and i go INSANE missing him I don't know what to do....so I fill it the hole little bit at a time and EVERY time I go kiss another guy I think i'm killin gmyself a little more or making the hole bigger or soemthing ya know I don't exactly but ya oh well what can I do I don't have a clue what i'm doing in life and Maybe I just need someone to talkt o so I'm REALLY REALLY glad that you called mike mayeb I got my friend back to talk to and don't worry i'll send you pictures okaY TTYL pLEASE CALL ME ~EMZ~