welcome to my life

well...I have been writing these things for a little while now and well I duhno why I am
I have a new favorite song and well ifg ya wanna listenm to it as well as reading the lyrics...... well here ya go go to www.launch.com and find simple plans Welcome to my life
here ya go

To be hurtTo feel lostTo be left out in the darkTo be kicked when you're downTo feel like you've been pushed aroundTo be on the edge of breaking downBut no one's there to save you No you don't know what it's likeWelcome to my

life this is just the chorus but its the Jist of it
anyway i'm gonna go find some friends at the mall and get some boots for ahalloween so ya TTYL ~EMZ~

andrs

OMG so ya this guy in my Ward has a friegn exchange student and were just sitting here in the computer lab at school oh my heck he's HOTT
i'll tell ya'll about him later but here's an insite!!!!!
BYE ~EMZ~

MARKY-MARK the tracker

O-M-Heck so i'm just sittin ghere deciding whta to tell ya'll about then Mark hits me with a frickin football okay so its not like a real football but heck it still hurt O-M-Heck he's so mean then he came and took it away from me went back into Brittney's office and threw it at me again GOSH JERK
the thing is niether him or Larry are really that intimidating there's just kinda Ugly.....OOO Oya thats right I bet your reading this righ tnow HUH well Duh you are JERK and NO it was NOT fun anyway gosh Mark you want me to write about you on here but then yo ugo and be all mean well I guess you got your wish see you at school
~EMZ~

P.S. hey Mark if you know of any Hott Jr. or Senior guys let me know or introduce me I'm actually guy free and its kinda weird

my time in centerville

hey ya'll so umm Devin finally told me like the reason why he likes me but ya know w/e I'm sorry but I just dont' feel that way anymore SORRY
anyway
onto the cool stuff
so this past weekend I went up to centerville to kinda see Rory for the last time but come to figure I will see him again either this weekend or the next depending when he goes to see his mom in maryland but anyway I stayed at mal's house and her B/f Matt was there and rory came over and a few other peopl ewere kinda off and on there but we went to the corn maize which was Gay but oh well then we went over to the SLC cemetary at like Midnight and Lani( mal's mom ) drove us so we were there for like an hour and we brought our tape recorder and tried to summon the dead it was Way cool but kinda wierd anyway.....at one point we were kinda running to theis one grave cuz it had a cool statue and so Rory and I are runnin over there and I triped and sprained my ankel so he's all oh gosh (and YES I am putting this into better language) so he's all oh gosh now THIS is a horror movie the teens are running in the cemetary and the hott girl trips and breaks her ankel and then the killer physko comes out and kills her and the hott guy it was SO-oo Funny well another wierd thing is we heard chains but we couldn't ever pin point it cuz ity kept moving ya i Know SO-oo wierd I thought it was me at one point like under my moving foot but NO cuz after I tried to freak Rory out he steped on my foot to show it wasn't and well THAT freaked me out anyway it was Way fun well afterwards when we got home(back to Mal's) we were gonna watch a movie but I convinced Rory to come to church with us in the morning and so matt drove us all back over to his house then left and Rory (after getting his stuff) let my drive his jeep back to Matts YEAH it was cool i like it anyway by the time we got back from all that it was about 2 in the morning and we were all dead so we decided to go to bed mal and i slept in her room and rory and matt slept in the living room well Mal's dad left at like 3:30 so about an hour later Matt comes wandering into the room and lies own weith Mal so I leave and go lie where matt was and go back to sleep the next thing I knew rory was behind me and we just slept till like 10 well the thing with me is I can't go to sleep with out some sort of music or a beat or soemthing so I put my head on his chest and listened to his heart beat well I guess he was dreaming cuz it would go from steady to way fast to way slow to steady and back and forth theu everything it was funny he told me later he had a dream that he got bit by a cobra (lol) well we went to church and he just came to sacrement well it was I think THE MOST boring meeting I have ever been to which sucks cuz I think that was the last chance Rory was gonna give to going to church oh well I guess its just not for him but he was supposto give me his hat but he finally came to well I'll see you again befor ei go to the marines.....grrrrr fine give it to me later anwyay I'll write more later but ya so SEE Ya wouldn't wanna be ya
~EMZ~

ya i'm drugged

hey anyway I havce been missing school like a lot lately but we took first in state and in ensamble for shakespeare yeah for us.... but I do have a little biut of s problem right now the good news is I'm friends with devin again andc the Bad news is well the problem is Kevin ....the guy I kinda started to use to get devin away.....welll he HAD a problem and it may KINDA alittle bit be coming back again he used to smoke....he WANTS to like Terribly wants to quit but he gets stressed out and doesn't know what else to do...I told him that next time he gets stressed out then he has to come over and just YELL at me and let it all out I don't care what its about just Yell it all out on me ya know anywya i'm over here at his and Matts apartment just kinda hanging he keeps trying to kiss me but I won't let him I told him it was just cuz of gewtting my wisdom teeth out and he was all okay but I just do NOT want him kissing me ICK anyway I'll let ya'll know how it goe4s if you have any HELP ideas PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE let me know AIGHT love you guys ~EMZ~
p.s. loratab is insane

What the Heck is going on?

OMG I so don't even know what to do
GRRRRRRRRRRRR
I duhno what guys see in me I don't know if its even Me or if its like just cuz they think i'm hott or whatever but I don't get it I screwed things over Bad with Mark
my friend Rory is leaving for the marienes in like a month and i don't want him to leave on a bad note with me or Kevin and so that my excuse not to hook up with Kevin even though Devin thinks were going out and ya know what devin if your reading this Sorry anyway I AM the biggest B*t*h and 1/2 I don't really have any friends or I do and they are all too busy I just need to take a week off and I will I'm going to shakesphere tomorrow untill Sun morning then I'm getting my wisdom teeth pulled out on Monday and daddy gets to get me movies and ice cream and stayu with me for at LEAST 6 hours after that cuz the doctor peoson said so so I ghet to take a week off even though i'm gonna be UGLY cuz I'll have Fat hampster cheecks and I don't want anyone too see except my good GIRL friends so were gonna watch sappy love story movies at my house so if your one of my GIRL friends reading this then call me and come over i'll be completely and totally out of it so ANYTHING I say to say ANYONE like over the phone or whatever then PELASE do NOT take me serious cuz I will be completely druged up so okay ANYWAY I guess the bells gonna ring and i g2g2 bowling and hang later call me people okay UI love you guys and thanx for listening please write comments if you have ANY advice cuz I need it and honestly if tya'll knew the WHOLE story then you would probably think I needed to be put into a mental hospital but that just my idea let me know thanx guys and I'll tell ya'll abotu shakesphere when I get back ~EMZ~

2 MARK and LARRY

so remember the trakcer guys I told you about ....well they actually read it and well Mark was all I liked it you hvae to write more man is he bored? LOL they really are cool thou...although I didn't like them at first I just think along with about ALL of my friends that they were trying to scare us to gettin to class LOL how funny cuz Mark is one big tuff scarry guy and well Larry ummm not so much SORRY Larry I still love ya though ANYWAY what else can I write about

HEY Mark did you know that I absoutly Love your name? ya cuz my b/f and his dad both have that name and we've been going out for like a month ....well I guess it will be a month on the 4th...I wonder if he remembers? well maybe he will that is IF he reads this...I know i'm gonna catch hell for that later but I guerss my dad's home now so I gotta go BYENESS ~EMZ~