i'm sorry

But this is how it Goes.....I know I haven't been the best of friends....and i'm sorry i'll let yall know when I think I can do better BUT STILL sarah i'm here for you I Promise through ANYTHING!

note to Devin

DevinI know I should have told you but I just couldn't right now and didn't know how to say it I'm sorry I hope NO hard feelings? I just didnt want to hurt you and then talking to Rachel I figured out that I would hurrt you more the longer I waited and well she was right and I guess thats really all P.s. what Rachel was reading today wasa email from Mark if ya really wana see it I guess just ask okaY TTYL PLEASE TALK TO ME ~EMZ~

and we all Fall down

okay maybe its just me but i'm going isnae here as soon as I realize that i'm not gonna be with Devin cuz I came up with More reason then before we all go hang out and even though I kinda got a b/f I couldn't say anything about him and I know I should have with the way devin and I were acting..but I (personally) wasn't doing anything wrong besides telling him to back off I just hope Jake was really okay when I told him he probably was because hes a erally strait forward guy but anyway as soon as I started to really like Jake ya'll never guess who decides he's gonna turn around and tell me he still cares about me Yeah I know Mark....I couldn't believe it either....he says he was just sick of hurting me by not calling when he says he would and all that but I mean OH my heck did he really have to Ignore me for a month to get it through or somthing Gosh Riley says thqat Girls are Bad wll ya know what Riley ya need to Check along with Devin and his comment of " Damn girls....can;t live with em', can't live with out em'. sorry but the ONLY reason we act the way we do is because all ya'll guys act the way you do sorry its Not our fault.....but since we ALL act the same way towards eachoher then wonder why the oppostie sex does we ALL FALL DOWN.....No wonder we teach kids that rhyme when they're young they use it all they're lives....MEN can't live with em and ya an't live with out em'
so you move on to the next one to find they're all exactly the same...good night! were never gonna learn!

what's it all about anyway?

I don't have a clue what I am doing these days, I hng with Devin with the Best intentions and then mess up we both know we shouldn't be kising and making out or whatever but when no one else is around emotions just kinda getthe best of us.....hey just a Note if yourgonna tell me something you May not want sarah to know yoiu shouldn't tell me cuz she knows everything I know even if I don't say anythign strait out she can just tell cuz she knows everthing that goes on with me SO ya sorry if that messes up any plans or whatever but with in the week she will know cuz if she finds out soemthing before I tell her then I owe her money its just kinda out little agreement so ya ummmm I don't know what is going on with Mark right now he won't talk to me at all and there's nothin I can do about it so I guess I give up.....I have actually had a lot of time to THINK and be alone especially with the whole boring cliafornia trip I had so much freakin time to think...gosh anyway I got lost one night out walking OOPS ask me and i'll tell ya about it k ummmmm I actually Might be giong to Preferance on the 22nd a friend of mine Jake from Idaho may come down depending on when he is getting recognized for his eagle and how bad the roads are and if his cousin is gonna come home that weekend but its probably yes i'm stoked anwyay ummmm I wish People would tell me stuff cuz aactually if itsl ike SUPER pesonal I won't tell sarah sorry sarah but I just tell ya stuff to do with ME so thats actually the way it goes k Hey you and becca stil;l owe me dinner LOL and you know it umm what else I actually think i'm completely bored with this whole Blog thing cuz then people just loko on here to see hows it? and I like talking to people yes even if its about Mark even though everytime I usually break down cuz I don't know what I did I glad that Jake is here for nme right now cuz it seem slike no one else can listen to it cuz either it hurts Devin or sarah's life is already too complicated and everyone else is just Way too busy if any of ya'll ever have time we'll go plaY okay I can listen to whatever is going on that is if you can listen too anyway the bells gonna ring and I still have rto check Sarah's blog so i'l talk to ya'll later ~EMERZ~P.s. that name came From Van if ya wana use it ask HER

Sarah

sarah is ALWAYS there for me always explaining stuff to me that I don't understand no matter how many times it takes she means so much to me... we go through everything together and totally understand eachother I have NO clue what I would do with out her I mean Devin tries to listen but everything I say like when its about any guy well he tries but I know he hates it so I try not to so thats why luckily jake called my last night and I talked to him for like an hour sorry devin yes thats why I didn't talk to you last night and yes Jake is the guy who owes me a date next time I go to Idaho yeah for me anyway this blog is supposto be about sarah so I love sarah and I have to tell her some stuff and catch up...literally anyway i'll talkt o ya lata ~EMZ~