Ocean of Dreams

well not that any one looks at these but I saw Devin's peom thing and well I wrote this not too long ago and i kinda like it

Ocean of Dreams
I dream't one night that I had a ship
a man in my dream had sold
made me think just what if
this boat ware made of gold?
and the fish in the sea were all of my wishes
that I had never told?
I want a new life
said an old struggling voice
I wish I had money
said a sailor of greed
a love of my own
with a voice so conceited
and all of my friends to be back
the crew sat there wishing
making fish go on swimming
as the ocean was starting to get full
I asked them to stop
before our gold ship was stoped for all of the water was gone
but each man won't listen cuz they're hearts kept on wishin'
there's no way to hear a mans thoughts
but for each wish to be a fish in the sea the ocean will never give up
because old fish grow up and realize they're gone
and their time was spent wishing right along with a song

i'm sorry

But this is how it Goes.....I know I haven't been the best of friends....and i'm sorry i'll let yall know when I think I can do better BUT STILL sarah i'm here for you I Promise through ANYTHING!

note to Devin

DevinI know I should have told you but I just couldn't right now and didn't know how to say it I'm sorry I hope NO hard feelings? I just didnt want to hurt you and then talking to Rachel I figured out that I would hurrt you more the longer I waited and well she was right and I guess thats really all P.s. what Rachel was reading today wasa email from Mark if ya really wana see it I guess just ask okaY TTYL PLEASE TALK TO ME ~EMZ~

and we all Fall down

okay maybe its just me but i'm going isnae here as soon as I realize that i'm not gonna be with Devin cuz I came up with More reason then before we all go hang out and even though I kinda got a b/f I couldn't say anything about him and I know I should have with the way devin and I were acting..but I (personally) wasn't doing anything wrong besides telling him to back off I just hope Jake was really okay when I told him he probably was because hes a erally strait forward guy but anyway as soon as I started to really like Jake ya'll never guess who decides he's gonna turn around and tell me he still cares about me Yeah I know Mark....I couldn't believe it either....he says he was just sick of hurting me by not calling when he says he would and all that but I mean OH my heck did he really have to Ignore me for a month to get it through or somthing Gosh Riley says thqat Girls are Bad wll ya know what Riley ya need to Check along with Devin and his comment of " Damn girls....can;t live with em', can't live with out em'. sorry but the ONLY reason we act the way we do is because all ya'll guys act the way you do sorry its Not our fault.....but since we ALL act the same way towards eachoher then wonder why the oppostie sex does we ALL FALL DOWN.....No wonder we teach kids that rhyme when they're young they use it all they're lives....MEN can't live with em and ya an't live with out em'
so you move on to the next one to find they're all exactly the same...good night! were never gonna learn!

what's it all about anyway?

I don't have a clue what I am doing these days, I hng with Devin with the Best intentions and then mess up we both know we shouldn't be kising and making out or whatever but when no one else is around emotions just kinda getthe best of us.....hey just a Note if yourgonna tell me something you May not want sarah to know yoiu shouldn't tell me cuz she knows everything I know even if I don't say anythign strait out she can just tell cuz she knows everthing that goes on with me SO ya sorry if that messes up any plans or whatever but with in the week she will know cuz if she finds out soemthing before I tell her then I owe her money its just kinda out little agreement so ya ummmm I don't know what is going on with Mark right now he won't talk to me at all and there's nothin I can do about it so I guess I give up.....I have actually had a lot of time to THINK and be alone especially with the whole boring cliafornia trip I had so much freakin time to think...gosh anyway I got lost one night out walking OOPS ask me and i'll tell ya about it k ummmmm I actually Might be giong to Preferance on the 22nd a friend of mine Jake from Idaho may come down depending on when he is getting recognized for his eagle and how bad the roads are and if his cousin is gonna come home that weekend but its probably yes i'm stoked anwyay ummmm I wish People would tell me stuff cuz aactually if itsl ike SUPER pesonal I won't tell sarah sorry sarah but I just tell ya stuff to do with ME so thats actually the way it goes k Hey you and becca stil;l owe me dinner LOL and you know it umm what else I actually think i'm completely bored with this whole Blog thing cuz then people just loko on here to see hows it? and I like talking to people yes even if its about Mark even though everytime I usually break down cuz I don't know what I did I glad that Jake is here for nme right now cuz it seem slike no one else can listen to it cuz either it hurts Devin or sarah's life is already too complicated and everyone else is just Way too busy if any of ya'll ever have time we'll go plaY okay I can listen to whatever is going on that is if you can listen too anyway the bells gonna ring and I still have rto check Sarah's blog so i'l talk to ya'll later ~EMERZ~P.s. that name came From Van if ya wana use it ask HER

Sarah

sarah is ALWAYS there for me always explaining stuff to me that I don't understand no matter how many times it takes she means so much to me... we go through everything together and totally understand eachother I have NO clue what I would do with out her I mean Devin tries to listen but everything I say like when its about any guy well he tries but I know he hates it so I try not to so thats why luckily jake called my last night and I talked to him for like an hour sorry devin yes thats why I didn't talk to you last night and yes Jake is the guy who owes me a date next time I go to Idaho yeah for me anyway this blog is supposto be about sarah so I love sarah and I have to tell her some stuff and catch up...literally anyway i'll talkt o ya lata ~EMZ~

ya I love you guys 2

so ya I get it like I thought about before NO one will even notice i'm gone thanx alot guys love you 2 so yeah sure i'm having a blast here...NOT there is absoultly NOTHING to do and all my plans always get screwed over but I don't really have time righ tnow i'm not even supposto be on the computer so I gotta go but I mean Duh no emails of anything ANYWAY i've actually been reading alot i've finished 2 books and started a 3rd they're actually pretty cool I've read jack weyland books before but somehow forgot how cool they were now I have to go see the movie charlie anyone wanna go? i'll talk to you guys later I really do love you all have a happy new year and hopefully ya'll actually did something unlike me MAN alive this SUCKS

GOOD-BYE

good bye everyone I sure will miss you not that hardley anyone will notice......ANYWAY i won't be able to be contacted for week untill the 4th really thats when i'll be in school i love all you guys and I will see ya LATER

Why is it?

When People Are Mad...The Truth Comes Out....And You Find Out How Much People Really Do Hate You!

songs with my Name!

kinda interesting to see what other people have to say about you HUH actually not knowing me how well my name fits HUH?**********************************************************************************
Artist: Bbmak
Song: Emily's Song
Album: Sooner Or Later

You will always be the one that I adore Means so much to me but dreams you were before It's you Emily to me but dreams you were before It's you Emily that makes me write this song Your eyes are open wide, but still so much to see All that's new to you seems so old to me Now I'm far away a minute seems so long

It's just another day without you It's just another day when I'm not there I'm going to find a way to be so close to you You've got to know how much I care It's just another day without you It's just another day when I'm not there I am going to give my love, my heart, my soul to you All this I'll give to you I swear

Longing to hold you feel you in my arms Never let you go far from me for long Girl I promise you my feelings are so strong Eyes are open wide but still so much to see All that's new to you seems so old to me When I'm far away a minute seems so long

(chorus)
If only you could read what's on my mind See right through my eyes You'd sooner realize
(chorus)

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Artist: Bowling for soup
Song: Emily
Album: Drunk Enough To Dance

(VERSE 1)It wasn't supposed to be like thisAnother dose of unhappinessI gave it all and managed to get shot down yet againSo I got drunkHad sex with all your friendsYou told me to never call your house again

(CHORUS)Emily, you saved the dayEmily, when you threw me away

She was always such a pretty girlNobody like her in the worldA little piece of heavenlyThat no one else could standI see her in my dreams at nightI see you when I close my eyesI just can't seem to shake you, Emily

(VERSE 2)You got your money and I got castOutside thrown out on my assIn the city with no one else, no where else to goSo I hooked up with this model from SingaporeEmily, I sure am glad you didn't want me anymore

(CHORUS)
She was always such a pretty girlNobody like her in the worldA little piece of heavenlyThat no one else could standI see her in my dreams at nightI see you when I close my eyesI just can't seem to shake you, EmilyYeah

Emily, you saved the day
Emily, you saved the day
Emily, you saved my ass

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Artist:David bowie
Song:See Emily Play
Album:Pinups

Emily tries but misunderstandsShe's often inclined to borrow somebody's dreams 'til tomorrow

(CHORUS)There is no other dayLet's try it another wayYou'll lose your mind and playFree games for MaySee Emily play

Soon after dark Emily criesGazing at trees in sorrow hardly a sound 'til tomorrow

(CHORUS)

Put on a gown that touches the groundFloat on a river for ever and everEmily

(CHORUS)

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Artist:Pink Floyd
Song:See Emily Play
Album:Relics

Emily tries but misunderstands, ah ooh
She often inclined to borrow somebody's dreams till tomorrow
There is no other day
Let's try it another way
You'll lose your mind and play
Free games for may
See Emily play
Soon after dark Emily cries, ah ooh
Gazing through trees in sorrow hardly a sound till tomorrow
There is no other day
Let's try it another way
You'll lose your mind and play
Free games for may
See Emily play
Put on a gown that touches the ground, ah ooh
Float on a river forever and ever, Emily
There is no other day
Let's try it another way
You'll lose your mind and play
Free games for may
See Emily play